Friday, October 29, 2010

Discrimination towards trans-men and women

As mentioned in an earlier post, life a transgender is not walk in the park. Discrimination and mistreatment lurks in every corner, and not knowing your rights will turn you into a helpless victim. Live in Uganda, being a transgender might cause you to end up in the land of the dead. In Melaka, depending on the religious authority's mood, you might get a good beating a few night stay in jail for waiting for a bus at the bus stop.

Cases of discrimination and mistreatment of transgender people is not much publicized here in Malaysia due to several factors:

  1. Media don't find it interesting, and some journalist find it more fun to mock the case.
  2. The victims find it taxing, time consuming, and dignity eroding to report such cases. Then again, we're talking about Malaysia, where dealing with the authority is at least taxing and time consuming.
  3. The victimizers would always get to runaway scott-free. While there are anti-discrimination law in effect, they does not cover gender variants (confirming with my HR personnel at the moment), thus providing a loophole on this issue.
There are other factors, of course. But the ones stated above are the most prevalent in my observation. Feel free to share your observation on this.

Overseas, however, there are quite a few documented cases on discrimination and mistreatment against gender variants. Take this letter, shared by International Foundation for Gender Education
So. Though the origin of this is not necessarily homosexuality, this seems like the place to post this.

Someone I know (through another forum, a trans woman) went to the DMV to get her name changed on her license. A not really fun procedure made worse by employees fucking it up every step of the way.

Several days later, she got this in the mail.

For those of you who don't want to read, it's a poorly thought out attempt to dissuade her from surgery. I figured I would post it here though it's really a trans issue as transphobia and homophobia intersect in the worst of ways. And homophobia is the source of the transphobia, in this case.

Essentially the point I want to put out there (though I'm sure most of us know this is the case) is this: The dominant culture of homosexual (and transsexual) disapproval is so overwhelming that an employee of the government felt it was his business to use the address obtained in a government transaction to send a trans woman a homophobic letter telling her that she is making an evil decision by attempting to live out her life as she feels necessary.

I don't really know what to say. It's a pretty disgusting letter, and I guess just one more person who thinks other people's private lives is his business."


On Thursday, October 21, 2010, I helped you get a driver's license or ID card at the San Francisco DMV. I noticed that you were changing your name and had supporting documents for the change. As I recall one of these documents outlined something to do with a gender change.

I have learned that the reason for the vast majority of gender change operations is the client's homosexual orientation. The homosexual act is an abomination that leads to hell. "If anyone lie with a man as with a woman, both have committed an abomination; let them be put to death." (Leviticus 20:13) "Do not err; neither ... the effeminate nor liers with mankind ... shall possess the Kingdom of God." (1 Corinthians 6:9-10) The homosexual act is one of the sins that "cries to heaven for vengeance." Supporting those who commit this act and encouraging and justifying those who have the orientation also lead one to hell.

Romans 1:21-32 explains how the homosexual orientation is connected with worshiping visible things in the world rather than the One Who created them. If this orientation is the reason for an operation that has yet to occur (or is in the process), I beg you -- DO NOT GO THROUGH WITH IT!

You can see that I do not support gender change operations. Consider Genesis 1:27: "Male and female he [God] created them"; and then Leviticus 19:28: "You shall not make any cuttings in your flesh..." Jesus clearly prohibits gender change operations. If an operation like this is the reason for changing one's name, then one has made a very evil decision.

Although I helped you with the name change, I have to say I do not support the reason for it if it relates to the above. If it does I must say I do not approve of this name change, and I also do not believe the state's recognition of it -- through official documents -- makes it legitimate or any less evil.

Please take a look at www.vaticancatholic.com. This website has critical information for your salvation and much more on many other topics. 

In Charity,
Thomas
I would say that this is a breach of privacy, and that the DMV staff had overstepped his authority by accessing the recipient's contact information and sending such letter. Having studied in a few religious institution, I believe his intention is good (for Muslim this might be seen as nahi mungkar, discouraging immoral actions), but I also believe that he is misinformed and ignorant of issues on gender identities.

Now, take a look at this case, also shared by International Foundation for Gender Education

Costello & Mains, P.C. Files Transgender Employment and Housing Discrimination Lawsuit

Mount Laurel 10/27/2010 02:27 PM GMT (WooEB)

New Jersey employment law firm Costello & Mains, P.C. has filed a lawsuit on behalf of April Murdoch, a male to female transsexual who was viciously tormented by her employer when her landlord, who entered her apartment without her permission and discovered paperwork pertaining to her transition, informed her employer of his find. 

“This is one of the more egregious and profound examples of hostility to transgendered persons," says partner Kevin Costello. “Her landlord invaded her privacy, called her homophobic names, and then kicked her out of her apartment. Then he told April's employer, who proceeded to torment her on the job with homophobic hate speech. He also forced her to work overtime without pay, under threat that he would ruin her life if she didn't comply." Finally, the suit claims, she was discharged. 

"We hope not only that justice will be done," Kevin says, "but also that by continuing to expose the sort of hate transgendered people endure for having the courage to be who they are, we can start to reverse the societal bias and ignorance that so often infects the lives of transgendered people. They already have enough challenges without such outright and hateful discrimination." 

The employment law attorneys at Costello & Mains, P.C. are dedicated to protecting the rights of New Jersey workers. If you suspect your employee or civil rights have been violated, visit http://www.costellomains.com/ today for a free legal evaluation of your claim. 

About the Law Offices of Costello & Mains, P.C. 

Kevin Costello and Deborah Mains have been fighting for the workers of New Jersey for nearly 30 years between them, having counseled and represented unions and workers for their entire careers. They can fight your employment rights, harassment, retaliation, discrimination or wrongful discharge claim in Court. If you have questions about employment rights in New Jersey, visit http://www.costellomains.com/.


Again, breach of privacy, and on top of that breach of employee's rights as well as breach of employment contract. It's a good thing that the law firm decided to take on the case. All the best to April. May justice prevail. 

We have seen examples of discrimination by government staff and employer, and a busy body 3rd person. How about in schools? Check this out (thanks to International Foundation for Gender Education for sharing):

US school official tells gay teens to kill themselves

Gay rights groups are calling for a US school board official to resign after he posted an anti-gay rant on his Facebook page.
Clint McCance, who is the vice-president of the Arkansas school district, wrote on his page that “queers” and “fags” should kill themselves.
He made the remarks after Spirit Day last Wednesday, which encouraged people to wear purple to mark a spate of suicides among gay teenagers.
According to The Advocate, which got a screengrab of his page, Mr McCance wrote that the teenagers had “sinned”, that he would disown his children if they were gay and that he was pleased that AIDS kills gay men.
He wrote: “Seriously they want me to wear purple because five queers killed themselves.
“The only way im wearin it for them is if they all commit suicide. I cant believe the people of this world have gotten this stupid. We are honoring the fact that they sinned and killed thereselves because of their sin. REALLY PEOPLE.”
In response to a commenter who criticised his remarks, he added: “No because being a fag doesn’t give you the right to ruin the rest of our lives. If you get easily offended by being called a fag then dont tell anyone you are a fag. Keep that shit to yourself. I dont care how people decide to live their lives. They dont bother me if they keep it to thereselves.
“It pisses me off though that we make a special purple fag day for them. I like that fags cant procreate. I also enjoy the fact that they often give each other aids and die. If you arent against it, you might as well be for it.”
In later comments, he wrote: “I would disown my kids they were gay. They will not be welcome at my home or in my vicinity. I will absolutely run them off. Of course my kids will know better. My kids will have solid christian beliefs. See it infects everyone.”
Tom Kimbrell, Arkansas commissioner of education, said in a statement Wednesday that he had “grave concerns” about the situation.
He said: “I strongly condemn the statements that appeared on Mr Clint McCance’s Facebook page … The statements attributed to Mr McCance constitute a significant departure from statements we expect from our school leaders.
“The divisiveness and disruption of these comments cause me to seriously question the ability of Mr McCance to remain as an effective member of the Midland School Board.”
Mr McCance is an elected official, the statement said, and the local education department cannot deal with him directly. But the department promised to deal quickly with any instances of homophobic bullying.
Facebook groups and gay rights campaigners are calling for Mr McCance’s resignation.
Human Rights Campaign president Joe Solmonese said: “McCance shouldn’t be allowed near children, let alone managing their education. We call for his immediate resignation from the school board.” 
Any of you readers have similar experiences to share? Feel free to email them to radicalscope@gmail.com :)

Michelle, signing off :)

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Fact and fiction about transgenders

Today I got a message over Facebook from a Kogulan Tanabalz with the following content:

October 23 at 10:50am Report
hey ur a tranny rite?...wanna suck my cock?..i mean it should be u guys hobby isnt?


Oh please... What age do you think this is? The Stone Age (if such age ever existed)?

People, time have changed, and what may be true 10, 20, 30, 9000 years back, may not be true anymore.

Let me share with you some facts and fictions about people like us:

Fiction: All trans-female dabble in sex work.
Fact: Majority of us have legit jobs, for your information. We work in boutiques, as performers, some even become managers. We can do what other men and women can do (not sure about something that is physically taxing, though). We do admit some of us are still working in the sex industry, but they have their circumstances. Then again, even cisgenders work in sex industry. Why don't you go after them?

Fiction: All trans-female are good with fashion and grooming.
Fact: This is at least true about me. I'm useless when it comes to grooming and fashion. If I go out shopping for clothes on my own, I'd be buying nonsense. Give me computer parts, I'll assemble them in no time. Give me a make-up box, I'd be staring at it for a good 5 minutes and still have no idea what to do with it!

Fiction: If you're a trans-female, you like men.
Fact: I know at least 1 lesbian trans-female, 2 bisexual trans-female, and 1 pansexual trans-female. See, sexual orientation and gender identity. Read here and here about for more details.

I'll be adding more in the future :)

Michelle, signing off~

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

My transition is a life journey

My transition started not only as a gender identity journey, but also in terms of personality and attitude. During my childhood, I am known as a hot-headed, stubborn, and brash boy who gets into fights a lot. When I was 13, my short-temperness (is there any such word?) resulted in me being exiled by the rest of my batchmates. Then I started thinking, "something is not right here. I have to change!".

At the age 14, I changed from a hot-headed, stubborn, and brash boy to a mild-mannered, soft-spoken boy. And boy, am I happy being like that. Less stress, less issues. I started avoiding activities that is too physical as well, except for martial arts :p. And I started to get very uncomfortable being in a man's body.

When I was 16, I stopped using "aku" and "kau" (a more rougher version of "I" and "you"), and started to use "saya" and "awak" (softer version of "I" and "you"). By now being called a tranny is almost like my daily bread :|.

Fast-forward to my varsity years, I was still as I was before, but instead of indulging in make-ups and fashion, I focused on my studies and gaming. This is when my geeky side started its debut. During this time I also affirmed my sexual preferences towards feminine people. That would include girls as well. (That explains my profile, no? Hehehe)

Fast-forward again to when I was working, every now and then, I started to take hormones, inconsistently. This is due to several factors; 1) lack of confident to purchase it myself, 2) lack of money. September 2009, Both issues eliminated, and I started taking hormones consistently. Actually, there is another reason why I'm taking hormones. It is because of my high sexual drive. Taking hormones reduced it to a more tolerable rate :). Mei-June 2010, mom noticed my breast, stating that it's already 32A size (yikes!), and she started probing whether I'm taking pills. And of course, I'd either deny or change the topic.

Around June and July is also when I started wearing skirts to work, and felt more comfortable in one rather than a pair of jeans. Next in the checklist:
- heels
- evening gown
- handbags
- hair rebonding
Noticed that make-up is not on the list? that's because i'm lousy at it :)

That all for this post. I'll be sharing with you more on the next one :).

Michelle, signing off~

Sleepless in Sri Putramas...

Woke up at 1.30am, and not willing to go back to sleep for a simple reason: I might overslept. My companion of 9 months had died on me. Well, not died, more like comatose, as I can't switch it on. The button got jammed, and I have no spare phones lying around. Coincidentally, neither do other people.

My companion is a mobile phone, which I bought after the lost of Chibi-Setsuna, a K810i Sony-Ericsson camera phone which I love to bits. How did I lost my beloved Chibi-Setsuna? Again, I'll reserve that for another time :D. This phone, which has accompanied me for the without fail since January 2010, is a Nokia 6070. An outdated model in the era of Blackberries, Iphones, and what-not. In more than one occasion, I do look at her and think, "I'm too sexy for this mobile phone". Despite that, I am grateful for the fact that she served me well. It would be nice if I could take tonnes of pictures with her, just as I did with Chibi-Setsuna, but hey, beggars can't be choosers :|.

Now I just need to bear for another 10 days, and get a replacement phone. In the mean time, I may have to call dearly beloved father (I sincerely do, though my love for him pale in comparison to how much I love my mother :p), and ask if he could get me a spare phone. Something cheap, just as an emergency phone.

Right, while we are at this, I might as well talk about something related to the reason this blog was started for. Being a transgender in Malaysia (especially a trans-female) is by no means a walk in the park. It's challenging, heartbreaking, nerve-wrecking, scary, and to some, downright disastrous. So those who thought that we chose this "lifestyle" is downright retarded; try living as one for a day, Einstein. To some, it's liberating, fun, exciting (some sexually as well. Can't comment much on those), exhilarating, plus what i said earlier. In Malaysia, for being a trans-female, you may get kicked and slapped with a hefty fine just for standing at bus stop, waiting for the bus. This had happened in Melaka. You could also get some nice favors by Abang Pulis, in exchange for a phone number. This happened just a couple of days ago to one of my trans-female friends. She's lucky. Some others had to obtain the same favor in return to their body. Abang Pulis is not that dependable when it comes to security, mind you :) ).

While many believed that transgenders are highly intelligent, talented and dependable, you'll be surprised at the fact that it's pretty hard for us to get decent jobs. Most people thinks that we are only good at performance art, make-ups, modelling, wedding planning, and prostituting. I'm better at setting up PC and troubleshooting them, though. Heck, I don't even wear make-up (and still pass as a girl~ whee~!!), and my sense of fashion clearly does not reflect my age. Coming to an interview wearing what you think would reflect your professional personality may also be your career suicide, Since they will look at your MyKad, you and back, and wonder if they had actually contacted the right person. This is especially true for those who didn't make it a point to update their identification card photo. Which reminds me, I have to make a trip to the registration department for the exact same reason... And check with them about name change procedures...

Dealing with the bank can be a bitch, twice as much if the Customer Service agent on the phone is a bitch him/her/itself. This happened to me when I was trying to buy a pair of tickets to Rainbow Massacre, a fabulous show hosted by Shelah. Have to make sure that I don't miss that during the next Seksualiti Merdeka. I'll talk about Shelah, Seksualiti Merdeka, and Rainbow Massacre next time. Taking a cab can be an interesting  experience, being a trans-female. In more than one occasion, the taxi driver actually asked me for a date. And they thought that I'm working as; a) a waitress, b) at a club, c) a promoter. Sigh...

I think I'll wrap up for now. And wait for a suitable time to take my shower and give the taxi driver a call, and go to work. I still have another 2 hours before that happens :).

Michelle, signing off :)

Monday, October 18, 2010

New pages of my life

Hi there :)

Here you have it, a new blog by yours truly :). And as the title suggests, it'll be a space for me to share my musings. Mainly about being a trans-female in Malaysia (and a Muslim on top of that. Rais Yatim will have one heck of a time reading my posts here :p).

16 Nov 2009 marks a new leaf of my life. New job, new friends, and finally, I decided to stay true to myself and start living as a girl. Especially when you have bosses and colleagues you don't really mind about your gender identity :D.

I've been taking hormone pills seriously and consistently since September 2009, and my voice had always been on the feminine side since I was fourteen (14). How did I get that kind of voice? I'll leave that for later :). Looks... some people said that I have and androgynous look, which I would reply "no way!", but hey, beauty is in the eyes of the beholder, right? Perhaps it's the lighting. I also have the tendency of walking with a sway (not that it ever capture anyone's attention. Else I'd be happily dating someone by now :| ), and I like clothings that accentuates my breast (A-cup :p).

Since then, I started to get more friends who are alike. Starting with Amy, a trans-girl from Subang. Jellene, a talented trans-girl drummer and bassist from Penang, and many others. Through Jellene, I got introduced to Seksualiti Merdeka, PT Foundation, and TransMalaysia. Next in my IN tray is Transgender Day of Remembrance, scheduled to happen on the last week of November (and we haven't prepare much! Yikes!).

This blog will be a channel for me to share about info on trans-female (note: for those who are already a trans-female. Am not interested on recruiting males into the trans-army~), issues on LGBT,a nd whatever related. Look forward for the next post, feel free to comment :)

Michelle, signing off for now~