My transition is a life journey

My transition started not only as a gender identity journey, but also in terms of personality and attitude. During my childhood, I am known as a hot-headed, stubborn, and brash boy who gets into fights a lot. When I was 13, my short-temperness (is there any such word?) resulted in me being exiled by the rest of my batchmates. Then I started thinking, "something is not right here. I have to change!".

At the age 14, I changed from a hot-headed, stubborn, and brash boy to a mild-mannered, soft-spoken boy. And boy, am I happy being like that. Less stress, less issues. I started avoiding activities that is too physical as well, except for martial arts :p. And I started to get very uncomfortable being in a man's body.

When I was 16, I stopped using "aku" and "kau" (a more rougher version of "I" and "you"), and started to use "saya" and "awak" (softer version of "I" and "you"). By now being called a tranny is almost like my daily bread :|.

Fast-forward to my varsity years, I was still as I was before, but instead of indulging in make-ups and fashion, I focused on my studies and gaming. This is when my geeky side started its debut. During this time I also affirmed my sexual preferences towards feminine people. That would include girls as well. (That explains my profile, no? Hehehe)

Fast-forward again to when I was working, every now and then, I started to take hormones, inconsistently. This is due to several factors; 1) lack of confident to purchase it myself, 2) lack of money. September 2009, Both issues eliminated, and I started taking hormones consistently. Actually, there is another reason why I'm taking hormones. It is because of my high sexual drive. Taking hormones reduced it to a more tolerable rate :). Mei-June 2010, mom noticed my breast, stating that it's already 32A size (yikes!), and she started probing whether I'm taking pills. And of course, I'd either deny or change the topic.

Around June and July is also when I started wearing skirts to work, and felt more comfortable in one rather than a pair of jeans. Next in the checklist:
- heels
- evening gown
- handbags
- hair rebonding
Noticed that make-up is not on the list? that's because i'm lousy at it :)

That all for this post. I'll be sharing with you more on the next one :).

Michelle, signing off~